Believe In Your Heart..

With a given time frame, I've got SO MUCH things to complete.. very sian... On top of that, I still have no clue as to where I would go after graduation. this gives me extra headache as semester is coming to an end. I've got like... less than 12weeks to seriously think about it.. -.-"

Shits piles up every single day... Thought maybe a good friend of two can cheer me up despite going through all this shit, but 1 spoiled brat is good enough to crumble your mood of the day. the you-know-who i'm talking about... should really SEE MY GREY NAILS!

sch stuff to be completed:

1. human motor essay - by 24th Nov (wed)

2. 10 freaking weekly log - by Jan 2011?

3. 1 freaking LONG FYP REPORT(1000words) - by Jan 2011?

4. 2 more freaking UT(human motor and sports coaching)

all this shit just couldn't go away.. and shit just always happen to pile up till the toilet bowl is full! FUCK STRESS! FUCK SHIT!

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
1:12 PM

Thank God that both of us are not an item... I felt awkward to be in his presence again. Perhaps we have not seen each other for a long while, the connection is gone. We almost spoke nothing in significance and for a moment, I thought, we've just wasted a day out... Nothing was purchased, though the idea of getting something was there...

How could this ever happened? Technically speaking, nothing should happened but why in the world would I still cling on to that moment when we had our best time together? It puzzled me even right till now...

It's time to let go and move on.. but easy said than done... I wish I could "abandon" everything about him and live a new life... Can I?

I wish that I will not find chances to meet him out, let's keep a distance for each other. that might help significantly for me,and perhaps for you as well?

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
11:44 PM

心寒。。。。

I'm starting to miss my sweetheart... how?

Life's been fluctuating ever since July....

when can my heart cease the wave and remain calm?

"Smile, what's the use of crying... You'll find that life is still worthwhile"

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
1:08 AM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVTtA7EZ1S4

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

'Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

If I could freeze the moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock make time stand still
'Cause baby this is just the way I always wanna feel

'Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

I don't know how or why
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is that it happens every time

'Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
11:17 PM

It's been a long while since this place is ever viewed again.. how's everybody's doing this days?Many things have changed and many decisions were made... I am totally a different person now..(: I wish life could be a bed of roses, where you dont need to worry for troubles and meeting dead end... But yet, that's not the cases...

Anyway, I've moved on and this place shall be archive for as long as....I don't know, perhaps till the day when I feel that I'd dropback a little and replay "My Life".

Till then,

Love you guys with all of my heart,

Jasmine Toh (hwa hwa -> huahua)

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
12:45 PM

Is taking a break the right decision to find back loving connection between us?

It seemed like I've made a wrong choice...

Things has been running dry... Even over the phone...

"Whenever we seek God, we bring ourselves altogether, our flesh, soul and spirit to His altar and meet Him. Intervention can then be done..."

Am I coming back to the heart of reconciliation?

I need hugs and assurance...

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
2:08 AM

well... I was definitely fascinated by the marriage of Ellen Degeneres and Portia De Rossi.

The love and connection is so important between couples because it is going to determine whether if there is any future between them and I really envied the connection both the couple had.. they may be gay but they deserves the respect from me.. Not trying promote gay here but I appreciate the love connection they've found. . . 3 years may seemed short but this was their crucial and precious moment..

I felt happy for them. (:

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
11:55 AM

Familiar Print...

Suddenly... thought of my past...

past relationships, past experiences

those are the memories that are hard to be erased

seems like an imprint on the ceiling of my heart

how far can i ever be able to reach and wipe it off?...

imprints which runs like a skit

it doesn't have its on "STOP" button... only "REWIND"

music sings by itself the moment when skit runs...

"sarang hae... Oh.. Sarang hae..."

I wondered if he ever exist now

to lie beside me and watch this skit together

how much i've desired to see your face again

how I yearn to rest my heart

how desperate I am to be convinced that both our heart are still connected...

Few days ago,

I happened to recognize your footprint in the forest

how familiar...

how close to my heart...

I wondered if you're walking towards the light

I wondered if the weather has gone bad

I wondered if you are still as strong

I wondered if you remember me...

I wondered....

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
2:22 AM